turbomomma

When im dieting I feel guilty for doing stuff for myself. Like How dare I take time out from kids and housework to help improve myself. I feel guilty because Im not allowing any junk in the house because I want to eat healthy so therefore the kids and hubby have to eat healthy . I shouldnt feel guilty for wanting to take care of myself and look  and feel better. This is something I need to do and so why do I feel as though I dont deserve it ?

Well my first week is out of the way it went well , im pleased with my eating considering we dont have much here I cant wait to go grocery shopping. I have exercised everyday except one but I was gone all day sat and I just couldnt get it in, However sat I was at my parents and they got the new Wii sports resort my dad and I canoed together it was  a BLAST and my arms are still sore it deff. got my heart pumping and really worked my arms so i guess I got a tiny workout in.  My dad and I are going to have a weightloss competition his dr told him he needs to lose some weight and just got on blood pressure meds . So this should be fun  my dad and I never did anything like this together before so im looking forward to it .

HELLLPPP!! No matter what I try I cant shake the late night cravings. It doesnt help that im a night owl and stay up till 1 or 3AM . There are times when I fall asleep with my stomach growling Its the most annoying thing EVER! I try drinking water but that just makes me have to pee every 2 hrs when I do finally go to sleep and it doesnt help me not feel hungry .;-( Any ideas on how to tame the wild beast of a stomach I have at night ?

SO I have gained back some weight  and I feel like a total failure. HOW DID I LET THIS HAPPEN?I felt so great and healthy after i lost the first time and now here I sit feel frumpy , tired and unhealthy, BUT I got my motivation this past weekend and Im so very ready and willing to do what it takes to get back that feeling I had before. I dont know how much I gained back and at this point I dont wanna know , I do not own a scale and I have no desire to step on one untill I  am fitting a lil better into my jeans .COME ON THIN ME I KNOW YOUR IN THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!